2019 Is Mine

It’s almost my favorite time of the year! The ending of one and the beginning of another. I’ve always been a fan of second (and sometimes third, fourth, and fifth) chances and for me the New Year symbolizes a fresh start. I don’t know about you, but this year was a rough one. I bought a car, and have yet to learn to drive it. I reached the highest weight I’ve ever been and it scared the shit out of me. I watched my family go through some really tough moments. And finally, I ended my five year relationship with the first man I’ve ever loved. Life hits you with curveballs at the most unexpected times. I wish I could’ve handled my bad moments better than how I did at the time. So, instead of making a bunch of resolutions and to-do lists, I’m making dissolutions and a NOT to-do list.

I’m NOT going to wait any longer, and learn to drive. I’m so fed up with being stuck inside my house everyday. I’m ready to be mobile! Aiden and I have so many dates planned. We want to see the world!

I’m NOT going to lower my standards and let anyone treat me less than I deserve to be treated. The breakup was really eye opening, and helped me learn so much about myself. Like Ariana said: thank u, next.

I’m NOT going to let my weight rule my life anymore. It has consumed my thoughts for as long as I can remember, and I’ve learned that I’m more than a number on the scale. My dreams of feeling beautiful in my own skin are far more important.

And finally, I’m NOT going to stress anymore. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason, and most of the time it is out of my control. I will no longer worry about the things that I’m not aligned with.

For once in my life, ALL of my dreams and goals feel like something I can actually achieve. I’ve never felt so postive about the future that lies ahead. Even on the bad days, which I have more of than I like, I feel like they make me stronger.

There are so many things to be greatful and thankful for. I’m NOT going to sweat the small stuff anymore. You shouldn’t either! Put yourself first for once and watch your life change.

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